Published at 25th of March 2019 11:09 pm

Chapter 98: In my heart

After returning to Forna’s mansion, we explained everything to Farga, Cleran and Dora who were having tea in the living room.

I was kinda afraid that Farga might get angry at our actions, since he had just been listening silently from start to end, but when I finished talking, a sigh and some unexpected words came out of his mouth.

“Well, I was naive.” (Farga)

“Hah?” (Velt)

“In the first place, I have the responsibility of watching over you and that damn demon. It’s my fault for letting you guys play around in the capital.” (Farga)

Farga isn’t angry. Rather, he’s blaming himself.

However, that hurt us instead.

Farga wasn’t being negligent about us, he just trusted us to not cause any problems.

The ones that betrayed that trust was Ura and me.

Without being able to think of any words of apology, Ura and I just kept hanging our heads down.

“Well, it’s a good thing depending on how you look at it. It would’ve been a problem if you got restrained, but being exiled means you don’t have to take any blame, right? You already helped imouto-chan~, so you don’t have anything else to take care of, right?” (Cleran)

“That’s right, bro! I’ve been waiting for ages, so let’s go search for goshujinsama now~” (Dorauemon)

Well, they are right.

I don’t have any other business in the empire, and I was wondering when I should leave.

“However, I still cannot accept it. Although she holds a general class status, that Gyanza woman……… even I have heard of her military prowess, but her thoughts are too dangerous. Princess Arsha seemed like she was worried about her.” (Musashi)

“It just means she’s that foocking strong at fighting. In reality, compared to the risks that woman brings, the war results she’s made are way higher. We’re in a warring period of survival of the fittest. Regardless of whether you talk about spirit, a great cause, justice or fairness, if you’re strong, you’re in the right. There aren’t any substitutes for that woman anyways.” (Farga)

“Nevertheless, I cannot accept it. If you swing your sword without any investigation and just make an assumption that is convenient for you, you cannot be saved.” (Musashi)

Musashi knew of Gyanza’s name from before, but it seems she didn’t know how abnormal Gyanza was until now.

Well, it was enough for me to get a trauma from her, so it’s understandable.

“Ayase……… I mean, Arsha probably knows though.” (Velt)

“Lord?” (Musashi)

“She knows that the antagonism between humans, demi-humans and demons……… will never disappear. They won’t ever be able to mix together. So, rather than holding a poor ideal, she’s trying to keep us at a distance, especially before it all gets crushed.” (Velt)

It shouldn’t just be Ura and Gyanza.

Ayase, who has gone to the battlefield multiple times, should’ve seen similar things too.

From people who have unjustified resentment toward others, to people that still have room for sympathy.

“That’s right. Those were my thoughts when I was ten years old.” (Ura)

“Ura?” (Velt)

“In this day and age, life stories are just about losers’ worthless unjustified resentment.” (Ura)

It’s the same for Ura.

Well, she couldn’t endure it this time, but that’s just how it goes for most people.

Really, the deeper I think about it, the more confused I get, that it’s such a troublesome and tiring world full of problems that are just too much for me.

“Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh~~~~~~~~~~~~, sheet!” (Velt)

I scratch my head. As if trying to vent my irritation, I let out a voice from the bottom of my stomach at the ceiling.

Like, it’s over already.

Because I rashly participated in a war and because the reality of this world was in front of my eyes for these past few days, my way of thinking has just become hesitant.

Even though it was supposed to be something I’m not interested in.

“I just kinda……… want to go somewhere far away………” (Velt)

I suddenly muttered that.

Then, Farga, who hadn’t been angry at what happened before, reacted.

“Oi, are you going to run away?” (Farga)

“Ahh?” (Velt)

“Even though you split paths five years ago, you finally reunited with my stupid younger sister. Are you going to leave her again? Or is it because you’re scared of Gyanza?” (Farga)

“Hah? Who’s scared! That brainless woman doesn’t matter.” (Velt)

It’s a lie. I’m scared of Gyanza.

However, I don’t want to go somewhere else because I’m scared of Gyanza.

I just want to calm down.

I was pampered and treated like a champion when I just half-heartedly did something, but when I actually tried to do something, it turns out that I wasn’t even that strong.

In the first place, too many things have happened in these past few days.

Honestly, I’m just tired.

“Farga-dono! I cannot let you insult my lord! Certainly, my lord was easily held down despite telling Gyanza he would make her split blood with his seven-coloured fin……… ger……… technique? But lord would not let it end like this!” (Musashi)

“Are you trying to respect me, diss me or what!?” (Velt)

“But like, we have to leave the empire soon, right? Then, it can’t be helped either way.” (Cleran)

“Hah? That doesn’t foocking matter. In the first place, why are you trying to take control? You did help out, but you aren’t even journeying together with us.” (Farga)

“Eh? I thought Cleran-neesan was bro’s friend!” (Dorauemon)

“Ah~, now that I think about it, you kinda just came with us in the confusion, but are you going with us?” (Velt)

In the end, nothing changed.

My original destination was the empire, but since Dora is here, it’s no longer my destination.

So, what I should be doing now is……

“Why………… do you have a,『well whatever』 , sort of expression?” (Forna)

Forna said that to us immediately after coming back late, since she had a bunch of things to deal with afterwards.

“Forna…… yo, welcome home.” (Velt)

“…… u-…… you really, are mean…… by tomorrow, I…… have to…… be all alone, and yet, you, you harass me like that……” (Forna)

Those eyes seemed like they were appealing to me, and it looked like she would start crying with a single poke.

“Uooooooonn, Velt-kuuuuuuun!” (Galva)

And she even brought someone unnecessary with her.

The tough, gorilla-like man, Galva, noisily entered the living room and hugged me while crying.

“Whyyyy, why are you guyyyyys! Even though, even though you were finally able to meeeeet!” (Galva)

“Ah~, shut up already.” (Velt)

“I was finally able to see the princess smile from the bottom of her heart again, and I had plenty of things to talk to you guys about!” (Galva)

That reminds me, I wasn’t able to talk to Galva much.

Well, it was because he considered our feelings and tried to let Forna be alone with me though.

“Well, it can’t be helped.” (Velt)

“It can be helped! We should be trying to oppose them! The princess and I will volunteer to object this regrettable punishment!” (Galva)

“Don’t just get all passionate by yourself. We aren’t demonstrators. All reason had passed by the time we lost.” (Velt)

“Uooooon, how can you be so calm! Velt-kun, this is just too much…… the princess!” (Galva)

Why are you crying the most.

He’s so sickening and over the top, and he’s always prioritised Forna and me since the past.

I just, feel so ashamed.

I mutter an apology quietly and put a hand on Galva’s shoulder, but Galva burst into even more tears.

“Velt…… are you leaving tomorrow?” (Forna)

“Yeah. It would just cause you trouble if I stay for too long after all.” (Velt)

“…… You could cause as much…… trouble as you want to.” (Forna)

Ahh, I thought we would split up after properly saying good luck to each other, but I didn’t think we would be forced to split up like this.

I should’ve treated our dates with more respect, but I guess this will become another regret.

Even though I was finally able to see her smile again, I made her make this kind of face again.

I actually want to talk more…………

No, there’s still time.

“Forna. It’s kinda cold, so wear something on top.” (Velt)

“Hah?” (Forna)

“Guys, I’m going out for a little.” (Velt)

Tonight is the last time. Then, what should I talk to her about?

A few days ago, she confessed all her feelings that haven’t changed since five years ago.

Then, I have no choice but to respond to that.

I’ll confess everything about me.

There’s only one thing to tell her about.

“Wait, Velt…… where to?” (Forna)

“I went to the cake shop in the morning like you wanted. This time you have to listen to my request.” (Velt)

“Eh, um, eh?” (Forna)

“I’m inviting you on a flying date through the night sky.” (Velt)

I force Forna to wear a coat and head to the balcony while pulling her with me.

“I’m going to sleep now.” (Farga)

Farga muttered a few words.

It sounded like he was telling me to talk to her to my heart’s content.

Well, it might become a bit long though.

“Velt…… um, it is pitch black. The lights in the sky garden have disappeared too. No shops are open at this time either.” (Forna)

“We aren’t going to any shops. We’re just going on a walk. Well, a fly I guess.” (Velt)

“Geez! Why do you quibble like that!” (Forna)

“Kuhaha, but it’s not like it’s pitch black. Look outside.” (Velt)

I pull on Forna’s hand and fly into the night sky.

A pitch black sky spreads out in front of us.

However, there are small, flickering lights below us.

“Ara…… that is true.” (Forna)

“It was the same in the Elfarshia Kingdom, right? Sensei’s restaurant was still going on until late at night, and he even had to prepare for the next day too.” (Velt)

“…… Yes…… everyone…… is living with utmost effort in their own ways.” (Forna)

I was about to say, ‘everyone’s fighting to protect those small lights, right?’ but I stopped because it sounded kinda conceited.

We float through air as if there was zero gravity.

In this sky and in this world, it’s just us two here right now.

From just this atmosphere, Forna, who was feeling down, seemed like she had calmed down a little.

“So…………” (Forna)

“Hm?” (Velt)

“I do not think you took me out to go on a conceited and romantic date like this. What is your objective?” (Forna)

“…… Kuhaha…… as expected of you.” (Velt)

“…… Um, I knew, but that should be the part where you lie and say, ‘I just wanted to go on a date with you’, right?” (Forna)

Forna asks me that while grasping my hand tightly.

She really knows me well.

And now, after putting on airs for so long, I decided to finally tell her.

“Today, I want to tell you everything in my heart.” (Velt)

“…… In your…… heart?” (Forna)

“That’s right. It’s not like the world will change or anything between us will change once you know about it. From this world’s perspective, it really doesn’t matter at all. However, I still want to tell you. I’m going to tell you everything you’ve been wondering about this whole time.” (Velt)

So, I told her everything.

“About me. About sensei. About Sharkryu. About Musashi’s parentage, Mackey Mouse, and Arsha too.” (Velt)

Because she’s the woman that’s cared about me the most in this world since we were brats, I wanted to tell her first.

I told Forna everything about Asakura Ryuuma.

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