Chapter 428 Xuanyuan Samsara

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November 12, 1949, Kyushu City, sleet and rain.

Our relationship has reached a deadlock. The invisible gap between us has grown wider and wider. This is not the cold war between couples after the quarrel, but behind the gentleness I have become accustomed to, our relationship seems to be gradually becoming farther and farther away.

We have been pregnant for more than three months. During this period of time, we will still call and meet. His gentleness is the same as before, but I have never seen the pity in his eyes again.

I know, he wants me to kill our baby, but I don't know why.

Are you afraid that my child and I will affect his career?

Don't tell me he doesn't know me? I love him. I would rather bear the infamy of a mistress than stay with him. I don't want to fight for anything. I just hope that we can have a child.

The child is my lifelong trust, I must protect him.

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Ding hai year, January 16, Nine Continents City, Little Snow.

At the fifth month of pregnancy, the characteristics of the pregnant woman were becoming more and more obvious. However, Shi An and I seemed to be getting colder and colder. There were fewer and fewer topics between us. I told him over and over again that I loved him, but it was already very difficult to get a response. In the past two months, we hadn't even seen each other much.

His study at the Central Party School was coming to an end, and his father had also said that he was likely to ascend to an even more important leadership position this year. What kind of future would he and I have after leaving Nine Continents City?

I don't know. I'm even scared to think about it.

The passion and love of the past cooled down at an unbelievable rate, turning into endless fear and panic. I even began to regret it and began to wonder if it was the right choice to keep this child.

My emotions are starting to get out of hand.

It is said that children are the crystallization of love, we have their own children, why is the feeling is getting colder and colder?

I began to face a problem that I had never even thought of before.

Is there love between us?

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Ding hai year, February 12, Nine Continents City, clear.

Father was promoted.

Director, Development Planning Division, Imperial Development Commission.

This seemed to be an extremely important department. The level of the main department and bureau wasn't high, but every action was related to national policy. His father had changed from deputy to deputy, and he had become one of the most powerful secretaries, second only to a few principal and deputy directors.

However, he was not happy at all. In the end, the news of my pregnancy could not be concealed anymore. My bulging belly ruined my father's good mood for promotion.

He asked me who the father of my child was.

I don't dare to say.

Even I don't know when I started. My heart is already filled with fear towards Shi An.

The more he understood the empire's political situation, the more he could sense Qin Shi'an's status within the Southwest faction, as one of the successors within the big faction.

If he could take a decisive step in his early thirties, then one word should be removed.

Such a person is no longer something a small clan like ours can afford to offend.

I'm scared.

But I still want to keep my baby.

I don't know how to tell my father the truth.

So I could only remain silent.

...

Ding hai year, March 1, Nine Continents City, Yin.

Here he comes.

What I can't believe is that he's here for me.

Before I knew how to tell my father the truth and choose to withstand the pressure, Qin Shian personally came to my house to apologize.

He admitted what happened between us and swore to my father that he would take good care of me and the child in the future.

I never thought that when our relationship entered a freezing point, it would usher in such a turn of events.

He was so gentle to me that he told my parents that he really loved me.

Really?

I don't know when, but I've learned to doubt.

I subconsciously thought of my father's promotion.

How much did his father's promotion have to do with his change of attitude?

I don't dare to think about it, and I don't want to believe that the man I truly love is such a man.

There seems to be a layer of mask on his gentle face that is collapsing bit by bit in front of my eyes.

It was shocking.

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Ding hai year, July 28, Nine Continents City, sunny.

The baby was born, but Shi An didn't come.

Three months ago, Shi An finished his studies at the Central Party School of the Empire and returned to Dengzhou.

A month ago, the appointment letter from the Central Organization Department of the Empire was delivered to Dengzhou, and Shi'an's new post was settled.

Mayor of Tianfu Provincial Capital City, Rong City, Ming Ding Vice-ministerial level.

This seemed to be some distance away from Shi An's original goal. His father said that Shi An was under pressure from several other outstanding young people within the faction, otherwise his new position would be even more prominent. This adjustment did not meet expectations. Shi An was still one of the successors within the faction, and the other handsome young men were still a strong threat to him.

He must have encountered a lot of pressure in Rongcheng, right?

That's why he didn't come this time. I don't blame him. I've decided that when my health is better, I'll go to Chengdu to find him.

Father agreed.

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Year of 1898, April 3, Rong City, breeze.

I finally came to Rong City and brought my son. The happiness that I thought had abandoned me returned to me. Shi An seemed to spend more and more time with me. The child was named Qin Cheng, nicknamed Mao Mao. It was obvious that Shi An liked him very much. This was the happiest thing for me.

I feel like we are just like an ordinary family of three. The doubts and disappointments I once had towards him gradually faded away.

This man, I still love him.

I think I've forgiven him.

No, I never blamed him for anything.

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Year of the Clown, July 28, Rongcheng City, moderate rain.

Mao Mao's second birthday.

However, Shi An did not come. I know that this year is another crucial year for him. The mayor of Rongcheng City has received many praises from the faction leaders. Even the supreme leader, Lin Qingtian, has a very good impression of him. Shi An has already made further preparations and is currently doing his best to deal with the competitors within the faction.

It turned out that there was competition within the major factions as well.

He gave me a Swiss bank card and said it was for my son's birthday.

Holding this card, my heart was filled with unprecedented fear and worry.

Ten million!

Dollars!

This was definitely not an asset that an official at the level of deputy governor of an empire could take out.

Where did this money come from?

For the first time, I felt that the string of zeros was so dazzling.

Shi An, you're confused.

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Geng Yin year, January 21, Rong City, sleet.

Shi An succeeded. Seven days ago, the appointment letter from the Imperial Ministry of Officials arrived in Rong City, Tianfu Province.

Qin Shian was appointed as a member of the Standing Committee of Tianfu Provincial Party Committee and secretary of Rongcheng Municipal Party Committee.

Although he is also a lieutenant governor, I understand very well the significance of this improvement to Shi An. Right now, he can already be regarded as the successor of the major factions, or even one of them no longer exists.

Shi An was undoubtedly very excited. Under his excitement, he gave us a garden villa in the sky.

In this city, such a villa was worth at least 20 million yuan.

In my panic, as I watched my man's position rise, I seemed to see the depravity in his heart.

...

Xin Mao Nian, April 10, Rong Cheng City, overcast to cloudy.

I have come to the conclusion that Shi An has an enormous personal fortune. I don't know how much it is, but it has at least exceeded 200 million.

His life is becoming more and more luxurious and his style is becoming more and more tyrannical. I don't know how many mistakes he made, but the reputation of the local emperor of Rong City has already spread to my ears.

Could it be that the leaders of the Heavenly Palace Province didn't know?

They were all the headquarters of the southwest faction. Could it be that this was the so-called protection of officials?

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Ren Chen year, August 8, Rong City, light rain turned cloudy.

I don't know what to write in my diary anymore. The fear in my heart has become more and more intense. I know that writing a lot of things may have an extremely serious impact on Shi An, so I can only keep a lot of things in my heart.

I have known Shi An for almost nine years. Mao Mao is already six years old. Our life is happy and full.

We do not lack power, status, or wealth.

But I know it's all built on a volcano that could erupt at any moment.

I watched as Shi An sat on the crater, but I couldn't stop him anymore.

I know Liu Dong. He is a famous entrepreneur and an imperial citizen of Tianfu Province. On behalf of him, his industries cover Tianfu Province, Southwest City, Dongshan Province, North City and many other provinces. He is a famous figure in Tianfu Province.

Shi An and he had exceptionally close economic dealings, and even a lot of money was taken over through me. Gold bars, jade pendants, antiques, real estate, luxury cars, yachts, and a series of things that ordinary people did not dare to imagine were rapidly increasing at home.

Shi An smiled and never refused. I don't know how dirty and bloody these transactions are, nor do I want to know how deep I've come into contact with them. I'm even beginning to feel numb.

Shi An could no longer turn around.

I'll be with him.

Even if he went to hell, so what?

...

Gui Sinian, February 3, southwest city, sunny to heavy rain.

What I was worried about never happened.

Shi An's career became smoother and smoother. Ten days ago, the Imperial Ministry of Personnel issued a letter of appointment to Rongcheng City, appointing Shi An as a member, standing committee member, deputy secretary, deputy mayor and acting mayor of the Southwest Municipal People's Government. He was nominated as a candidate for mayor of the Southwest Municipal People's Congress one month later.

Shi An's successor position is becoming more and more stable, but only I know how dangerous he is.

Ten years later, back in Southwest City, with my seven-year-old son, my heart finally began to relax.

This is the headquarters of the major factions. Shi An should be safe for the time being, right?

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August 26, 1895, Southwest City, clear.

Mao Mao is already eight years old.

However, Shi An, a 41-year-old taxi, also seemed to have a trace of white hair on his temples.

After the initial high spirits, His days in the southwest didn't seem very happy, I don't know why, According to his father, who is now the second-ranked deputy director of the Development Committee, Since the beginning of this year, the development of the southwestern faction has not been very smooth, The dispute over the Ministry of Officials almost triggered an all-round confrontation between the royal faction and the southwest faction, Father Zhe Ji, who was likely to be the director of the Development Committee this year, Lin Congzheng, the governor of Wuyue Province, had suppressed him. He had occupied Nine Continents City for more than ten years, but now he was the aggressive War God King. The Imperial Security Department was in turmoil, and the military was in turmoil again. The War God King's Mansion was secretly attacking the prestige of the supreme leader. After more than half a year, the southwest faction was somewhat tired of dealing with it.

Right now, the entire faction was in a defensive stance.

As for Shi An, he was his main competitor. The upward trend of the royal Governor Huangfu Jun was exceptionally obvious. Shi An was getting more and more irritated, and his smile had also decreased.

I really want to tell him that we already have too much and can't continue to fight.

But I know that the consequences of not arguing may be even more tragic.

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Sep 9, 1895, Sunny, Southwest City.

Shi An was furious.

But this time I saw fear and panic in Shi An's eyes.

I received news from my father that a new round of inspection from the Imperial Supervision Department and the Ministry of Officials is about to begin. Dongshan Province, Tianfu Province, and Southwest City are all within the scope of this round of inspection.

This meant that the game between the southwest faction and the king faction was once again at a disadvantage.

The political arena is raining heavily, and my heart is surging.

This time, would he be able to cross the border?

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Jiawu year, September 29, southwest city, overcast.

Sun Yi was caught.

This news is no less than a bomb for Shi An and me.

Sun Yi was a heavyweight entrepreneur in the southwest city, and his status was not inferior to Liu Dong in Tianfu Province. He was also one of the people who had close contacts with Sun Yi.

Sun Yi bribed Shi An with at least 20 million through me. The impact of his capture on Shi An was simply a disaster.

Shi An had already called for help.

Thus, Lin Fengxue came.

The catastrophe has begun.

Will Lin Fengxue be the turning point of disaster? I don't know, but I'm looking forward to it.

...

It was raining heavily in the southwest city on October 3rd, 1895.

I don't know what else I can say!

I shouldn't have eavesdropped on Lin Fengxue's conversation with Qin Shian, but I'm glad I heard the conversation.

Lin Fengxue is a bastard.

Qin Shian, this man I've loved for so many years, I didn't expect that he would actually be a scum.

A month ago, Qin Shi'an, who felt that something was wrong, had already started to move. He had secretly transferred all the money, real estate, luxury cars and other things that he had embezzled for many years to my name. I knew that he was planning to take the blame for me.

Lin Fengxue told him that as long as I died, there would be no evidence. Moreover, in order to eliminate the roots, Lin Fengxue even suggested that he kill Mao Mao and his own son.

Qin Shian, he agreed.

Haha, is this the true face of the man I have loved for many years?

A hateful little man.

Back then, was I really blind?

I suddenly felt disgusted. I had to escape. I had to leave this hypocritical and disgusting man.

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On October 7, 1945, Little Rain, Nine Continents City.

I went back to Nine Continents City, but I was homeless.

They persuaded my father to use the position of mayor of southwest city to make a deal with my father.

I'm under house arrest at my house.

If it weren't for Uncle Sun, the old butler who had loved me since childhood, helping me escape, perhaps Mao Mao and I, mother and son, would have already died, right?

This is my real father.

A husband and father who wants to kill his wife and son.

A father and grandfather who wanted to kill his daughter and grandson.

These two men were a perfect match.

Then what am I? !

I'm nothing! ! ! ! ! ! !

I hate them.

Hate their betrayal.

Life is meaningless to me. I feel like a stray dog abandoned by the whole world.

I'm ready for death, but what about Mao Mao?

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The year of 1895, October 9, Nine Continents City, Doomsday.

All his life, he was greedy for pleasure. If he had an afterlife, he would be willing to be an emotionless cow and horse.

...

Cheng Shuang's diary ended here.

In the ward of the War God's Mansion, Lin Xuanyuan lowered his head and looked at the notebook silently. He then looked at the electronic calendar on the wall.

The year of 1895, October 9, Nine Continents City.

Today.

Willing to be an emotionless cow and horse.

Lin Xuanyuan's fingers trembled as he took out a cigarette and lit it. He raised his head to look at the fur curled up on the bed.

Lin Shuimo, who was still standing in the ward, discovered that at this moment, Lin Xuanyuan's expression was unprecedentedly complicated and sad.

Many, many years ago, that winter, a young man surnamed Qin accidentally saved a child surnamed Lin.

Many, many years later, this autumn, a young man surnamed Lin unintentionally saved a child surnamed Qin.

"Mao Mao, are you willing to take me as your master?"

Lin Xuanyuan looked at the child curled up on the hospital bed and whispered, "I will spend my entire life teaching you everything. I will, I will teach you everything. I won't, I will find someone to teach you!"

Lin Shuimo's body trembled as he looked at Lin Xuanyuan in disbelief.

Mao Mao raised his head in a daze and remained silent for a long time before firmly saying, "I am willing."

"Alright."

Lin Xuanyuan took a deep breath and looked at the child. "Are you still willing to surname Qin?"

Mao Mao shook his head without hesitation, his eyes obscure.

Lin Xuanyuan extinguished the ashes, picked Mao Mao up from the bed and whispered, "Alright, from today onwards, your surname is Xuanyuan, Xuanyuan Samsara!"

The child lay in Lin Xuanyuan's arms, pursing his lips and clenching his fists.

Lin Xuanyuan stopped talking and walked to the door with the child in his arms.

"Your Highness..."

Only when Lin Xuanyuan's figure was about to disappear did Lin Shuimo suddenly react and subconsciously shouted.

Lin Xuanyuan hugged Xuanyuan Samsara's body for a moment and said without turning his head, "You can go back. I won't agree to your matters."

"Why?!"

Lin Shuimo suddenly became excited. She rushed forward two steps, and then her body suddenly stopped. Her tone was hurried, almost incoherent, "Why?" ! Your Highness, I'm not convinced! Why are you so nice to the Lin Clan in the Northeast, but you don't even look at the Lin Clan in Nine Continents City? ! Twenty years ago, we were originally a family. Your Highness, it's unfair and unfair for you to treat our two families like this! "

Why was he so good to the Lin Clan in the Northeast, but not to the Lin Clan in Nine Continents City?

This was something countless people in Nine Continents City wanted to ask.

But the first person to ask was Lin Shuimo.

"Why are you asking me?"

Lin Xuanyuan turned around and looked into Lin Shuimo's eyes for the first time. "Why are you asking me?" He whispered.

"Why?!"

Lin Shuimo remained unmoved as he stared into Lin Xuanyuan's eyes.

Lin Xuanyuan was silent for a long time before he put down Xuanyuan Samsara. Looking at Lin Shuimo, he said indifferently, "Miss Lin, let me tell you a story."